I cannot believe how fast time has flown by. It seriously feels like yesterday when I was in labor with you. I am so glad we made it through that whole ordeal!
I wanted to write you this letter to thank you for blessing me with the most amazing love and lessons I have ever known. You truly are our miracle baby and daddy and I couldn’t be more thankful or in love with you. They say that your entire life changes when a child joins it, but they never quite say how.
For me everything changed from the moment I found out about you. My eating habits, my sleeping habits, my work ethic and my emotions. For those first 12 weeks of your life I was totally 100% dedicated to growing you from that small circle I saw on the ultrasound at 5 weeks to the baby I just knew you would be! That 100% dedication turned into infinity dedication with the first movements and sites of what your features would be during the 3d ultrasounds.
However, I was never prepared for that moment when I would finally get to meet you. In my mind I had it all set, labor and delivery would be typical and I would hold you and look lovingly at you and just never want to share you with anyone ever. But you and I both know that was a farce. On your birthday 2 years ago, you were whisked away to the NICU and I was put in seclusion in kidney failure with no real idea how sick I really was. At one point I lost my mind on those nurses and just cried and yelled at daddy because I hadn’t even remembered seeing you and that is all I wanted. Finally the nice nurse showed up just after daddy left to feed the dogs and I was all alone and she miraculously talked the NICU nurses into bringing you to me.
The moment they brought you to me all hooked up to tubes and wires I was so scared. I have never felt more alone in my entire life…until they placed you in my arms and you opened those tiny little eyes and just looked at me. The feelings of love that I immediately had for you were ones that I didn’t even realize existed and I knew that I was not alone. At that moment, you became my reason for living and being a better person. At that moment you made me not only a mom, but your biggest fan.
Over these last 2 years I still get those same tear jerking emotions and insanely obsessive feelings of love when I look at you!
You have taught me many lessons, some funny, some serious and all life changing. Here are just a few.
1. Sleep is overrated. As long as those nights were (and sometimes still are) I couldn’t care, because those are moments I cherish. I could stay awake for months with you as long as you were there with me.
2. Any little accomplishment you have I will celebrate. I am your biggest cheerleader and even when it was a poopy after 2 days of constipation we celebrated with dancing, singing, calling all our loved ones to share the news or whatever crazy obsessive thing I thought up that day. I will continue to celebrate those accomplishments for as long as I possibly can. Don’t be surprised if I am that mom that has a “Wall of Eyan” outlining all of your accomplishments. I will always be proud of you.
3. Love is not just a word. It is a way of life. I love you like I have never loved another human being. I can’t imagine life without you and will be by your side forever.
I love you Eyan, you have grown up so quickly and are such an amazingly intelligent, adorable and perfect little human. Thank you for letting me be your mama and teaching me everything I need to know about love.
Happy Birthday Little Ninja Funk!