My baby fever is high…like extremely high. It has been for a while and people have been tip toeing around me when they get pregnant like I am going to hate them or blame them for being pregnant which is driving me crazy. I had a miscarriage…I am ok…God has a plan and although that baby didn’t make it, I fully believe another child will make its way into my arms. I am past the anger stage (which is just that a stage, not a permanent fixture in my soul) and in all honesty I AM SO HAPPY for all my friends and family that are expecting little ones! What a joyous time in their life.
But well I can’t decide. Do we go for another baby now and ignore the realities of life because I have the fever or do we wait and try to time it so that the next baby shows up at an opportune time? Can we really time it? I have several factors playing into the “opportune time” (if there really is such a thing).
1. My wonderful job…the fact that I will be teaching AP next year and missing 8 weeks in the middle of a school year without pay is INSANE!
2. Eyan has straight out said NO BABY! Which I realize he doesn’t know that a sibling could totally be awesome, but it just crushes me to think he might actually know what a sibling is and just doesn’t want to share me.
3. Financials of a new baby. Jason and I are just now starting to get a grasp on our insane spending. That is what happens when wads of money get thrown at two 20-somethings…you kind of forget how to live a normal life and when normal HAS TO HAPPEN, it is an adjustment. A new baby would cost us an estimate of $600.00 per month, and that is a rather large sum of money. One that I totally feel is worth it, but I worry would put us in debt and I do not do debt.
4. I am planning a trip to DISNEYLAND for Eyan’s 3rd birthday with a bunch of friends and family and we are darn excited, but a pregnant woman/new baby would make this trip no fun for me…and we know I like fun.
So what are your thoughts readers, do we throw caution to the wind and go for it and deal with the repercussions later or do we time it?