Today after a 3 month internal battle with myself I finally went to the doctor to address an issue I have been struggling with.
Today, I went to the doctor. It took everything I had to go into that office and tell my doctor that I stopped all my medications that I need to take to keep my body working right, to tell her that I essentially have more anger and hate in my life right now than is normal and that I do not want to be a wife, mother or well anyone right now.
I start an anti-depressant today. Even as I type this out, I don’t want to take that pill. Total self-destruction. I am going to take it. It is the first step to getting back to normal.