First of all, Thank You to everyone that entered my 100th post Boogie Wipes Giveaway! A winner was announced on the Rafflecopter where you entered, so go check if you won!!!
Now to the meat of my Thursday Thoughts. As you may or may not know 3 weeks ago after a good 2 month wait I finally miscarried my precious angel baby. It was tough both emotionally and physically and I am still healing from this loss. I was excited to be a mommy again, to be pregnant and cute again, to wear those comfy clothes, find out the sex, decorate the nursery, document the pregnancy on the blog, but MOST of all to share another part of my heart with a new baby! Now this is all I can think about…and it is driving me crazy. I have a ton of “what ifs” going through my head and I have been trying to rationalize ALL of these!
I want another child, but I want a healthy child and and healthy pregnancy (to read about my pregnancy/delivery with Eyan go HERE). So I sit and I wonder, is my poor little body ready for another pregnancy so quickly? Am I emotionally ready? Are we actually financially ready? If I did get pregnant again would this pregnancy lead to yet another miscarriage? Do I do the blood testing to see IF anything is actually wrong? The list goes on and on.
ADVICE IS NEEDED!!!!
So I open up my comments and my heart to my readers in hope that some of you can share your insight.