So it’s been a week since I got the news that there has been no fetal growth and a very low heart rate. I am floored by the amount of support and quiet, comforting personal experiences similar to my own. I thank everyone who has reached out to me on Facebook and on this blog! It means a lot. I am glad I spoke out and shared my anger. I feel like miscarriage is something that many women do not talk about. Everyone has their own reasons, but for me speaking out is helping the healing. I hope that other women continue to share their stories in their own ways.
We are still waiting to miscarry. The HCG in my blood stream is still at a high enough level that the miscarriage hasn’t happened, but with two extensive talks with my doctors, I have been assured that there really is no hope and that it should be no more than two weeks before my body does what it is supposed to do. It is sad to say, but I am ready for this long emotional roller coaster to end. I have been “pregnant” for “9 weeks” and my emotions have been on high alert the entire time. It is a hard place to be. At this point I have made my peace, prayed for the soul of this angel baby, and began to try to live my normal life.
I will keep you posted. Thank you again for your support.
Jeremy, Censie and Jude
Friday 30th of December 2011
So sorry Laura! I really hope that this passes quickly and that you can heal!! <3 <3 <3
Sport
Friday 30th of December 2011
Toxic, I'm so fucking angry that this is happening to you. And I'm so sorry for your impending loss. You are an incredible person, mother, wife and friend. I hope that in some way, you are able to find solace during this hard time and that something beautiful comes of all of this. I love you.
-Sport