K so I realize that I initially had a choice in this matter and I realize that it’s only for 2 short weeks, but I am so sad. I go back to work on Monday and am just not ready. I thought I would be at this point. I’m not going to cry, because Jen is a fantastic second mommy to my babies. That at least is a positive.
I am thankful that summer is only two weeks away and that I basically get to spend the first 6 months of Emberlynn’s life with her. I am thankful for Jen and her amazing patience with my kids. I am thankful for my job, which I love, and need to truly keep my passion alive.
Monday makes me nervous! Packing everything, making sure she has enough milk and pumping at work to keep up. Eyan is easy in that all he needs are his daily clothes. Emberlynn needs 4x more stuff. Oh and what about her feedings at night? What if she’s screaming while I’m frantically trying to get ready for work? God help me, I’m so not ready for this.
I’ve been taking in every last moment with my kids this week because I am going to desperately miss them next week!
Send me good luck people, I’m going to need it!